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Writing diary 19/03/2014
writing
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Writing, in a nutshell:

writing in a nutshell

Saw this on Lady T's facebook but didn't feel brave enough to share it on there. One day, I might come out of my cupboard, or not...

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handsome shark
oxfordia
Wanted to write a book review on Goodreads and my blog and I'm kinda stuck :(
I had so many things to say about the book immediately after I read it but now I'm only coming up with platitudes. I'll try again at some other time and turn to non-creative copyediting then. It feels like Friday here...

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motivation
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Took the executive decision of going to bed early last night and I'm even more tired today. Guess I'll be working tonight, then.

G validated my GF cheese scones but her dad forgot to give them to her this morning. I put a small one in her lunchbox as a snack. She's also got a GF bagel in there. There's this new brand that's only has available in the UK for a few weeks and we managed to find a pack on offer over the weekend.
I very nearly made GF blueberry cupcakes on Sat but I had to go out and leave the final stage to R who forgot to add the baking powder. The only problem is that all those things contain eggs, which don't agree with me so well. I figured I'd crack the 'regular' GF cooking so I can feed G and see about trying egg free version for myself later on.

Betcha Santa is going to get me some cookery books this year.

writing diary 07/10/2013
dilemma
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Now I've said I wanted to give nanowrimo a go, I'm asked when I'm available for work... Typical!
I really don't know what to do as I've been worried about money lately and I am more productive when juggling work and writing. When I have 'nothing else' than writing to do, I tend to freeze. On the other hand the last couple of years have been paved with 'I'll write when I've finished that job.'
I know, I know! I'm never happy, am I?

writing diary 01/10/2013
writing
oxfordia
Now my mother has gone back home I am back on the research for my main female character. I've got a clearer idea of where she comes from and how she ended up married to this lousy guy. She's just around the corner. Now, I need to work out roughly what her life has been after she got married which would take me to ... the beginning of my story! There's no knowing how much of the back story will seep through the writing anyway, so it's not all in vain, I think. It also makes me feel like I've got a real woman there and not just a paper cutout.

Still, there is much to do after I've sorted her back story. There is Ke. The question about him is how does a man become so inept. I'm not going to go in depth into his past, but I need to identify a couple of milestones. I never imagined he would be the narrator at any point but you never know where your characters might take you and he needs to have a voice of his own, even if we only hear it in dialogues.

There's the best friend who works as the trigger of this whole thing. She's still fairly obscure. I've got bits on her background I put together over the years but I'm worried it goes too far back so I need to make sure I don't stray when I work on her. She's not the heroin and we don't want her confusing things.

Then, there is the other-wordly other man. I've read a lot of stuff that relates to the world he comes from. However, I'm not sure he's ever going to have his own biography. It doesn't feel necessary as he is more an archetype than a character.

Once I've work through these 4, I should have more plot. My main problem at the moment is that I don't have any antagonist or conflict. I've been so intent on the heroin's obstacle being 'inner' that I haven't yet found a way to translate this into a concrete plot point. I hope it'll come to me as I keep on researching and laying the fundations of the story.

I've got this notion that maybe I could use nanowrimo to force my plot/first draft out. After all, I won't have any paid work then, so why not? I know where my weakness lies: I'm never confident enough to keep going so I think the challenge would help me keep at it. However, I know that if I put too much pressure on myself I'll conk out. But let's not try to make excuses before we've even started, right?

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handsome shark
oxfordia
Migraine central here. :(

I didn't miss you, insomnia.
Brunch
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Bother! I've been up since 3 and as I couldn't go back to sleep I have watched Pale Cocoon (anime) and Endless Love with Brooke Shields. I haven't read the book so I suspect it's just the way it's been filmed: there seems to be no real motivation for the actions that move the plot forward. The father just decides he doesn't want David to see his daughter again and goes crazy when the kids haven't done anything supporting such a drastic move. I mean, he could have said I want you to see each other less as this is OTT for kids your age, etc. I dunno. It just didn't feel that credible. David's arson seems similarly fetched out of thin air. A friend mentions he once did 'this' and he was considered a hero so the boy goes to do it too. The thing is, there's nothing to suggest David has psychological issues before that. I know love supposedly makes young people rash but they don't lose their ability to think altogether, do they?
I watched it because it was hailed as a modern Romeo and Juliet but R and J's story has proper foundations in that the two households have been fighting for eons.
It does make me wonder if the book's success had anything to do with the fact that there was huge helping of teenage S.E.X in it?

Posts like this one happen when I don't get much sleep...

If you have an opinion on the subject, please share.

Perspective
motivation
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I am always aware of the fact that, despite the ups and downs, I'm very lucky and should concentrate on the good stuff. Today, chatting with a friend about one of her friends has reinforced that feeling.
This lady is married to a guy who comes from a rich family to begin with, so they wouldn't need anything in terms of money. They also bought a house, redid it properly with high-end materials and features and sold it when the market was good. It must have fetched at least £800,000. More than I'll ever have, unless something seriously unexpected happens. However, I would not trade my life for theirs.
They have 3 children. The eldest one is about 10 and she has Down syndrom. I'm not sure what her 'degree' is, but my friend was saying that she was quite violent and had serious sleep problems. That, in itself, would give her mum tons of work... But they also have twin boys, one of whom has Asperger. Of course, there's so much help they can get from carer-relief organisations and so on, but you can imagine that 2 hrs a week don't really help that much when you've got all of that on your hand. On top of that, the father blames the various problems on his wife so he's out of the house as much as possible, and even taking work over in the US so he doesn't come home for months at a time. You just see things differently, then. She's got money but a husband who isn't there for her and two children who need a lot of attention and one who probably doesn't get enough attention.
I feel sorry for her. Looks like her husband is a real ass too.

So, yeah, it's not all fluffy kittens around here, but it's quite alright and it's worth acknowledging it from time to time. It gives me a bit of perspective.

Shakespeare meme
handsome shark
oxfordia
First seen on gillo's page.

When you see this on your flist, quote some Shakespeare on your LJ.

Sonnet 144:

Two loves I have of comfort and despair,
Which like two spirits do suggest me still:
The better angel is a man right fair,
The worser spirit a woman colour'd ill.
To win me soon to hell, my female evil
Tempteth my better angel from my side,
And would corrupt my saint to be a devil,
Wooing his purity with her foul pride.
And whether that my angel be turn'd fiend
Suspect I may, but not directly tell;
But being both from me, both to each friend,
I guess one angel in another's hell:
Yet this shall I ne'er know, but live in doubt,
Till my bad angel fire my good one out.

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Book
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I'm trying to finish the Buddhist book and I am fed up with it, even though it's interesting and I enjoyed reading it. That's what people mean when they say 'Don't become an editor if you like book.'Looking at anything that closely and intensively will make you want to burn the damn thing.
This book is so full of inconsistencies and dodgy English turns that I've reached that stage. What is surprising is that I always seem to be astonished by the number of mistakes I have to correct. You'd think I'd be used to it by now...

Also, it's hard to find the motivation to fix something that, according to Buddhism, doesn't exist. Let's just pretend this is an act of loving kindness towards fellow humans as the book might wake them up and help them on their way to nirvana.

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